Tuesday, February 12, 2013

So my weigh in last Thursday (2/07/13) went well:

Down: 0.6
Currently: 185.2 
Total Lost: 23.8 

Which was surprising because it was another even more stressful week. My boyfriend and I bickered, we ran into a terrible landlord who made us listen to all his theories on why Obama is terrible and when he started getting homophobic I had to literally walk away from him. (The worst part is this apartment was amazing, I would never have listened to his bullshit for that long otherwise.)

But good news, we finally found a place! And it's in an awesome area, so I'm excited about that. Though, I nearly had a heart attack when the landlady called me and was thinking of changing her mind because we're so broke. And it's weird that we barely got a good look at this place because the tenant was still there when we looked at it. First impression was good, though... So even though we gave her the deposit today, we're both still nervous and we have to start the whole process of actually moving now. Going through our mountains of stuff, selling what we can, maybe getting a storage place, selling Ethan's truck that doesn't work... Still a lot to do, but at least the stress of possibly couch surfing/living in our car has been lifted.

Anyway, all that ramble was to say I'M STRESSED and tracking pretty infrequently and eating too much fast food. And as of the last few days I've had an awesome cyst in my armpit which has made any exercise impossible. So frustrating and uncomfortable and embarrassing. It's fun that stress will exacerbate an extremely painful skin condition (Hidradenitis suppurativa. I wouldn't google image that. Mine is moderate usually, though my armpit is making me miserable at the moment.) which then exacerbates my stress... 

So to sum up: Not looking forward to weighing in or moving, am looking forward to my meeting (missed it last week, only weighed in) and being able to exercise again. Even though I'm stressy and whiny, I'm so thankful to not be sick anymore and my winter depression has been improving, so woo, good things!


Friday, February 1, 2013

It's a new month, how did that happen...

Slacking on this blog already? I wanted to write an update at least after each weigh in, but apartment hunting has really been stressing me and my boyfriend out. It's kind of tough to find a nice place in a nice neighborhood that allows pets and also wants an unmarried couple (you'd think that wouldn't matter in 2013) where one works part time and the other is unemployed and they both have terrible credit. IT SUCKS. Anyway, I haven't had the extra energy and I thought it might be better spent on tracking and working out.

And it was, yay! I lost exactly 3 pounds in January.

1/10/13

Weigh in: -2.6
Weight: 186.2
Total: -22.8

Woo, not between 188-192!

1/17/10

Weigh in: +2.2
Weight: 188.4
Total: -20.6

Blergh. My period plus two guesstimated meals, I think were to blame here.

1/24/10

Weigh in: -1.6
Weight: 186.8
Total: -22.2

1/31/13

Weigh in: -1.0
Weight: 185.8
Total: -23.2

I was so happy to see 185 yesterday. Last week I was really happy to see 186 again, but 185 feels like I'm solidly away from the 188-192 range I bounced around forever and it feels good! Also, I weighed myself before the meeting at home and it said 188 so my home scale is clearly an ASSHOLE. It made the WW weigh in a happy surprise, though, so that's nice.

So that was January. Slowly getting back into the running groove. I beat my mile record! Wasn't even trying, don't you hate me right now? New record: 14:34. 8 seconds faster! ZOOM, BITCHES.

PICTURES, BITCHES!

I should probably get consistent with my pose and using flash or not...

I thought it might be better to take these without sucking it in, but I'm regretting that now... Also, I should do something about my hair...

So that's 3 pounds down, don't think I can see any discernible difference. I'm really glad I'm taking pictures. I've been getting compliments and feeling good in my clothes and that's been dangerous for me in the past. I start feeling cute and completely lose my drive, but seeing pictures lets me know I still have lots of work to do. I don't want to lose sight of my long term goal because I don't currently feel terrible.